Disturbing thoughts

So for the very first time I am actually considering doing a fellowship. Quite a contrast to my earlier grouchy posts, I know. I just had a blast my MICU month. I actually want to study again, which is a DECIDED difference from the last 18 months. The disturbing part is that I really don't know squat about pulmonary/critical care fellowships, and I am unclear what the lifestyle is like. Also, I have been very much looking forwards to finishing residency and actually having a job, with the associate free time and increase in discretionary income (assuming Obama doesn't go too crazy with the progressive income tax). So while I find myself drawn to the field specifically, I am still resistant to the notion in general.